Friday, May 25, 2012

Nafas terakhir dalam dakapanku

Title sentimental...lantak..org tengah berduka ni.. T_T

Tak kusangka...jodoh kami tak panjang... Jal mothaeseo..mianhae woori aegi.
Air mata mencurah-curah bak waterfall..tido mlm pun berteman air mata. time driving pun terbayang-bayang...tgh mkn pun leh meleleh air mata ni..

TERKILAN..hanya 1 ungkapan yg dpt aku luahkan. kalaulah kami cepat....kalaulah aku lebih peka & berhati-hati.. Ya, aku kurang pengetahuan...very minimum knowledge of how to take care of her..

Baeky...yg mana baek juga membawa makna putih dlm bahasa korea. Adik yg bagi nama ni. Baru lebih kurang sebulan aku beli Y~ong & Baeky.. Cinta pandang pertama.. Agreed to take turn jaga with my sis.




        Y~ong.... sgtla buas. semua benda dia bedal.. Lengan aku pun dia ngap.
Suka-suki dia je. selalu buli Baeky..tp very manja gak dgn Baeky. Main2..then landing sebelah Baeky..or kdg2 give her hug..
                               

Baeky.. Very shy and passive. Bulu punyala gebu sampai mata tak nampak.  . Rela je kena buli dgn Y~ong.


Namun..no more gebu-gebu... Even since awal2 lagi she's little bit unwell tapi still survive.. Tapi semalam..dunno why, suddenly kena diarrhea. I thought nnti ok la sbb before ni pun dia ada problem camtu sikit.. Tapi bila dah petang, mama kata dia dh makin teruk. Balik je keja aku tengok dia dah lembik, nak angkat kepala pun dah lemah longlai..Try to give her glucose on vet's advice but she refused..Nak cari vet mana memalam dah ni..klinik pun dah tutup.. And as i was cleaning her feet..suddenly dia senyap je..dada dah tak berombak. kuit-kuit dia kot2 lena ke, pengsan ke..senyap gak.. dah rasa ada air panas bergenang kat mata... Berjurai terus air mata bila mama kata.."Kak, dia takdak dah"...Tak percaya..berkali-kali aku belek dia. Still senyap...badan dah sejuk and kaki dah kejang.. Finally..her last breath in my arms. Sungguh, aku and mama sikit terkilan sebab tak sempat hantar dia jumpa vet. I still checked if she's still breathing till the time to bury her..with little hope she's still alive...


Farewell, our little Baeky





Sunday, May 20, 2012

I like different

Tengok The Avengers 3 minggu lepas membuatkan aku terfikir lak sikit...It seams there's quite a time that i like it differently when it come to person/ celebrity/interest and whatsoever..Taste aku pelik ke...hahaha..

Ok, in term of hmm..lets say celebrity..
First skali SUJU..aku ingat lagi bila zam beria-ria introduce Siwon yg hensem macho habis and Heechul yg super cantik cam Natasha hudson..indeed I fall for Hankyung the chinese guy yg average je in look..however wins me with his dance skill.

And dlm the avengers..when others really into tony stark or captain america..I choose the Barton guy..Hawkeye. So cool outfit and archery skill..Oh my..^drooling^
So HOT!!!!!!!!!!!

I like Jaejin more instead of Hongki in FT Island,
Wooyoung over Nichkhun in 2PM,
The old wrinkle Nick Stokes in CSI:Vegas..hehehe..I like him since mula2 aku berjinak2 dgn CSI few years ago, and also Horatio Caine in CSI:Miami..slalu je dgn sunglass dia n senget2 kepala bila investigate...hahaha..Funny lak..serta Dr. Reid dlm Criminal Minds..Suka tgk bila dia start talking 2 explain..wow, the speed..could be a good rapper..
Sunggyu of Infinite instead L yg ramai gila peminat sbb he's such a good looking.

Well, nampaknya aku just suka someone with less popularity..heheheeeee..and of course we people would have different interest..We all human tapi hati lain-lain..mesti thinking and likeness pun lain-lain..
Just like how i prefer rock music over ballad when ladies normally like soft music. Rasanya, i'm just being in different interest..isn't it?  hehehehe..

Tic Toc

Tic Toc...time flies really fast.. dah almost setengah tahun 2012..
Now, it's been a year already for me working at this company. Happy 1st anniversary!! eleh Aliaa...perlu ke?? org keja 2-3 tahun tak kecoh pun.

However, there's few time i feel like quitting already because there's someone that really give me headache..simptom2 tekanan perasaan bertalu-talu melanda diri. But i survive...sedaya upaya tabahkan hati kerana aku mau ilmu dan pengalaman. Aku takmau dicop setahun jagung dengan berpindah-randah tempat. Selagi aku terdaya survive..I will survive. This company give me lots of chances for experiencing something new to me..I like the environment..i like my boss because we sort of having few same characteristics..But that one person really tensed me..annoying. I love my saturday working turn when that person not around..hehe..sounds evil right!! :-P

Anyway, for now i'll just cope with what i can withstand.

With time's ticking..so do my age.. macam lirik lagu..'tua mengejar...'
Hmm ...there's something bothering me..well, aku leh relax lagi tapi.. tapi my mom...she's worried that i don't have someone special yet.. Relax la ma..Take it slowly..I'm making friend right now..Someone not ordinary however not special yet..for now. I'm enjoying my single life so much right now.. still banyak lagi aku nak buat. Ok, i give myself up to 2 years more in finding 'him'.. So just wait a little while ye..


And right now, there's a plan that popped up in my mind..Still just a plan in mind..SO, wait till i have REAL PLAN. It's related to my previous dream..just little bit different concept.. Hmm...